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Five or six days passed, and the old man shuffle crept back in. The right arm also started to tighten up. I was directed by my Mayo neurologist to leave the DBS settings alone for the first two weeks, to give my brain a chance to get used to the new electrical input. The two-week mark couldn't come fast enough. I was permitted to increase the signal voltage by 0.1 volts per day, starting at my initial level of 1.3 V. When I reached 1.9 V on my right side, thing began improving again. When I got to 2.1 V, the ceiling currently allowed by my neurologist, things were even better. Alas, within four days, the benefits again started to fade. Over the weeks, I've nearly returned to where I started before the surgeries. I am happy to report that my worst Parkinson's Disease symptom, the pain in my neck, is still much improved. That problem alone had been interfering with my life and my ability to work. So, regardless of everything else that's frustrating me now, that is a wonderful thing!
Left side, above my ear |
I mentioned frustration. Let me explain.
I have this $25,000 device implanted in my body. There are literally millions of combinations of setting that can be tried, and I've had a glimpse of the possible improvement that awaits me. My next DBS appointment at the Mayo isn't until the middle of August. I've tried twice to get an earlier appointment with no success. This is in stark contrast to how quickly I was able to get appointments to be evaluated for DBS candidacy. So, despite all of the possibilities in front of me, I'm stuck for two more months. No, I'm not stuck; I'm regressing. My brain has developed a tolerance to the current DBS setting and my old symptoms are back, almost at full strength. I felt like Superman on my first angling trip, about 8 days after DBS system was activated. I walked confidently through rocky creeks with no thought to using my wading staff. Two weekends ago, I lost my balance and fell in a creek. Yesterday, just walking around the house, I was shuffling and stumbling. And my neck was starting to hurt at the end of my workday. My right arm just hangs in mid-air. I have to consciously put it back at my side after I do something with it. There's a cost to this stiffness and rigidity: even though I'm not consciously asking my muscles to do something, they're still burning energy as if they're being used. This is exhausting. By 4 o'clock in the afternoon, I'm so tired that I need a nap to be able to function.
Frustrating.
Cable running from behind my ear, down the neck, into my chest |
Here's the latest: I came to the decision last night that there is one more neurostimulator parameter over which I have control: On/Off. If this thing isn't doing me any good at night, there's no reason to be wasting the battery life. So, I shut it off when I went to bed. When I got up this morning, I can't really say whether the Old Man Shuffle was any worse, but I did notice something. After walking about ten steps, a moderate tremor took over my right hand. A few minutes later, I turned the neurostimulator back on. 3, 2, 1. Poof! Tremor disappeared. Turning stimulation on again didn't make much, if any difference in my walking or arm swing, but it looks like it's keeping tremors at bay. I'll take it!
Look ma, no stitches! |
Other reports: My head incisions have completely healed and are barely visible, as seen above. The external sutures on my chest have all fallen out, and there's only a little redness around that incision site. There have been, knock on wood, no signs of any infection or other complications from the surgeries. I consider myself very fortunate to fall into that particular statistical category. I can feel some tightness in the wires running up my neck, but it's mildly bothersome at the worst.
I have no reason to believe that anything but good things are coming my way, once I can gte back into Mayo for new neurostimulator programming. I'm very optimistic. I'm just not very patient. And I'm not an ideal patient, either. I'm educated and opinionated. I want to be in charge of my health, not a passive observer. Time will tell whether or not the doctors at the Mayo are the right ones for me. If not, I've already started exploring other options. Life is too short for uncomfortable shoes or medical care that doesn't meet your needs.
Chris, I'm still very optimistic at things are going to work out in the long run. I hope that you are able to take control of the stimulator soon. See you after runoff!
ReplyDeleteYes! Very much looking forward to coming back out to Colorado. So many possibilities!
DeleteI'm not worried, and trying not to sound whiny. A couple of nights of turning the neurostimulator off have reveal that it's doing more than I thought when it's turned on. So I've got that going for me. Which is nice.
Hope I'm not out on a limb, here, but the Caddy Shack humor of your last sentence speaks volumes to your strong spirit. All the best.
DeleteAl, if you're out on a limb, I'm right there with you. And I brought a saw... ;)
DeleteEducated and opinionated breeds impatience....all things doctors hate in a patient. But not bad traits to have when dealing with your health. I think even better things are on the horizon, once the docs reach their comfort level with making changes. But I know....I know....their timeline for comfort and yours are not necessarily running in parallel. :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there Chris!
I have another issue working against me: arrogance. So, I have to be very mindful of that when I'm listening to the experts, and realize that I am not an expert in their field.
DeleteYes, sir! I'll just hang in there... dangling from a tree, in this harness, until somebody comes along and helps me descend. (Please tell me that never happened to you...)
I don't really have anything inspirational to say but I feel like too many people don't say anything when they don't know what to say. So...stay optimistic, good things are in your future.
ReplyDeleteThanks for saying something, Drew. I'm one of those people that tries to keep quiet when I don't know what to say. "Better to remain silent and be thought a fool..."
DeleteIt's a good feeling to know that you take a few minutes to stop by and read here, even with your busy schedule! I hope the trip to MN and WI was enjoyable! I enjoyed the photos of your recent family float trip very much.
I had a feeling there was an update. Great to read it. Good to know you can show yourself you are getting some benefit, even if not so much as hoped. My best wishes with the waiting - I can imagine how frustrating that feels.
ReplyDeleteWell, since you taught me the mathematical relationship between comedy and tragedy (Comedy = Tragedy + Distance), it's becoming less frustrating and a little funnier every day. "I will look for humor in life by finding people I can laugh at." Even if it's me, apparently!
DeleteYou are a brave dude. Being a human experiment has to be tough. I'm eager to see where this goes.
ReplyDeleteWhat's the old saying? "There's a fine line between brave and stupid..." How exactly do I determine where that line was? ;)
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